More house complications. We have requested that the seller's bank extend their deadline for closing. If they say yes, we're okay and will move forward with the repairs and other things. If not...we walk away. In some ways it's a letdown because I really don't think they will extend it. I feel like all this time is wasted and I hope that I can get the image of what that house could have been out of my mind. In other ways I feel good knowing that it will be over soon...one way or the other. Doesn't matter but so much. I just want to be finished.
If this falls through, which I feel that it will, we're going to start looking at apartments. I am feeling discouraged by it because I feel like nothing is in our price-range....but I'm clinging to the hope that we can find SOMETHING that will at least be better than here. I absolutely insist on a black that has a washer/dryer hookup and some sort of yard out back. I would really prefer something with a fenced in little square of yard behind it...but that might be too much to ask for. I would LOVE to be able to just open the back door and let Dani come and go as she pleases. I think she would enjoy that immensely. I also want room enough for a slide or a baby pool. Nothing huge...but still something she can enjoy. We'd also like a 3rd bedroom so I don't have to be crammed in so tight....Dani really needs a playroom of her own too. I'm not really ready to move her out of our room...but maybe sometime in the next year or so.
Besides that I just feel like I'm sitting here spinning my wheels. I'm not getting much done in any aspect of my life. I have been sewing, but that is slow going because I have a toddler that needs me. If I could let her in my sewing room I'd be fine...but that just causes problems. Dani is very insistent about playing with my machines. That's fine except I NEED TO USE THEM TOO. I also have a lot of stuff out that is dangerous. If I could get it cleaned up, maybe it could work...but we'll see.
Thankfully I do have a wonderful husband that helps as much as possible. He will amuse her while I disappears for an hour or two to get some work done.
Dani is awesome. Hard sometimes. But still awesome. She is babbling and singing constantly...it amazes me how much of a song she can sing! Sometimes it's not the actual words...but the sounds and timing are spot on. She's been able to sing things like "Goodbye! See you later!" which really surprised us both. She copies a LOT more than even a week ago. I knew the clinginess meant something good was coming down the pike! Sometimes it's really hard to be the type of parent I am now...but I think it's worth it. Instead of getting angry with her for needing me I'm trying to see it as a very necessary part of development...which it is. She's growing and changing. She needs mommy to be there more than ever. That's not to say I never get frustrated and want to pull my hair out...but I try to put on a happy face for her and deal with it on my own.
Thankfully my week is full to help keep my brain off of topics that will only depress me. Tomorrow I'm spending time with an old friend, Thursday my mother will be visiting for the day, and Friday I'll be heading over to a crunchy friend's house. Hopefully I'll find some time for sewing and cleaning in there somewhere!
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